Resurrection

'Only an option defines an end and only an end defines a beginning'
             Do you ever feel like you are just holding on to life for reasons even you don't know? Do you ever feel that a shortcut is much easier than going through what shit bucket life has kept for you? Does your mental pain ever exceed a point where youd rather physically hurt yourself? Do you know what it's like to be broken?
              People always preach about falling in love. But what if there's nothing there. What if you fall your way down and find that it was nothing? What if you go down the wrong fall? That's where life decides to give you a choice - Either you keep going and then it'll fuck you up or you just end it where you fuck yourself up.
              I myself have faced this situation few too many times in my story now. But what if I told you there's a correct answer to this unasked question. What if there is light for you to fall through your love and come back out from the other side, a better person than you were before? Dont reinvent the wheel. I will tell you. But it's a secret. It has to stay between me and you. It has to make it secretly through the cracks of people who need it. It has to close ends and start beginnings. It has to bring light to all those who have lost the will. Do you promise me that you can handle the weight of being a part of a team? All of us together - we won't blame anybody. We won't ask God why. We won't ever complain about life. Because though for reasons unknown you haven't yet decided either options yet. You are alive(I hope) and reading this. Promise to yourself you will just hope. Not try, not struggle. Just hope.
            Ever wish that you should have known something a little bit earlier. Ever wondered how things went so bad from so good. Where just yesterday was cloud 9 and how gravity accelerated so quick. Ever wondered why you are still lying on the ground where you don't wanna be even when you were candid, your try was genuine. Just let it flow once. Accept to yourself you weren't wrong and some things just happen for no reason. Some answers are always just out of reach and that hakuna matata is where you want it to be.
             You are the only competition in your story unless you make anyone else your downfall. You are the only thing that matters. And nothing else. Finally every relation ends and every friend walks out except the Satan inside you. I want you to be friends with that Satan. You will find that he or she was just undermined. You will find that, that Satan is just a ball of clay waiting to be molded. First thing would be to create the craziest image of it in your mind and then love who that is. Because you are defined by what you believe not what others believe. What you know and what you believe is the ultimate truth and that's what God is. That's how they say God is within you. The supernatural isn't always the God. What if I told you God is relative? For an ant human is God. For an ant who has been betrayed (or tried to be killed) only herself and her strong belief that she can build her clan is her God. Not very appropriate but that's how God is. Relative
            It's time. Get up now. Dust that failure off yourself. Spike that Satan up. Pray to that God. Be true to yourself. Fuck the whole world. No exceptions. Nothing but you matters. Take a deep breath and just reset. It's hard but If you have followed me so far you will do it naturally. And make the choice. Decide to fuck yourself up more. But give the rein in life's hand. Cause when you have your Satan life's a little pet compared to your mighty ant.
        Build your clan and love them hard.
Will be continuing